After reading a blog of someone-who-knows-who-they-are, wile i hurt for this person, and in no way wish that there sadness and loneliness continue in anyway..... its damn good to know that this happens to someone else. i was beginning to think there was something wrong with me(P.S.----there mostlikly is). The sleepless nights, alone with only the deepest recesses of the ugliest parts of my mind, places with no decreeable escape. the introspection, and dissection of everything i do and say. sometimes its good for you to explore who you are, but after a wile it becomes an eire existence where dazed in thought, you begin to lose those around you because you become someone else.... unrecognizable to the ones you love. i dont pretend to know exactly whats going on in your mind, and what your going through these past days. kust that i can relate... try the last couple years of my life. after much time, you find that when you put your heart out there for another, more than likely it will get stomped. and you learn that even though you might think the world of this person, rather than take a chance and make a move, you let that shit slip past, and rather than risk getting hurt, you swell the pain inside, and dont even attempt to love another. and then comes the time you turn on yourself. you pick yourself apart, each and everything wrong with you, until you can no longer love yourself, making it impossible to even begin loving another... and then your lost. All i can say to you is i know your better than this, you know how great you are, and you know you have people that care a great deal about you. take that risk, make that bond, and fail if need be, just dont give up, cause once you have, its escaping a black hole to get back.
Listen Good
I don't have nobody
But what I might feel all the sounds of sanity
Hoping what I hear, loops itself continuously
Then I won't be afraid
Kid Cudi
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